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Tuesday, September 02, 2008

And you turn the page again...

When searching for the answers... what do you find?
Looking back.....
You turn the pages in your life when you did wrong....
If i was to go back 5 years from my life now...
It'd be telling myself....
You have it made.
The girlfriend....
Some times the grades...
I'd remind myself to enjoy all i had then....
And than you turn a chapter of your life to realize....
To see all that you once knew all changes over time.
How about that woman in your life now you have?
How you felt like living was the day she took you on a date....
How you had talked the night away....
If you thought living was the first time you had kissed her....
To turn that page on your life how it felt to get on one knee asking for her to be your dance partner for a life time.
And turn the page again......
What all happens next...

If your to write the story of your life......
Where does it all start?
The moment you breathed...
To the moment you meet the one who takes your breath away..
How about those plans you have for the future...
In 5 more years what will you be saying....??
How about that wife you have?
How how about that time you had your first child and met eyes with them....
That's all you have waiting for you....
In your new chapter....

All those chapters and pages before all count...and shape who you are and who've you become....
But to look back in past lovers....or past dreams...
It's all so different than how you thought....
You still in the end have hope, dreams, a life....
A job is a job....
A dream is a wish...
Reality is what you know...
But you dare to dream bigger...
Those are the pages you keep repeating...
How about those words of I love you to remind you your on a journey you may be unclear of right now but know you'll get past...all cause of one new character in your life.

You can base your life off what may be...
You can place your heart on the line...
Who's left in all that?
Who's looking at you now as the woman you are?
That one....who still gives you butterflies...
The one you hope to raise a life w/.
The pages keep turning....and the chapters get a little longer....
But your living the dream...just with your life...
It's all the dream of a life time...


Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Moving along

Not much has been going on to let you know. I'm in college now but if you read this i'm sure you know that. I have a girlfriend who's amazing. Friends i adore but miss my family back in Davenport and my doggies Hunt and Scout! Not much too say.


Sunday, June 03, 2007

Happy for the moments

She's slowly make her way back into your heart.

You might have been heated at the way she showed her love to at first.

Four years and counting she's still the woman you have always loved.

She's slowly say she's sorry for the way she's been acting.

You'll slowly say it's okay and your sorry for the way you've been apart.

You might have been heated.

She may have been jelous.

Deep down she knows you love her and maybe she even knows you won't leave her side.

Is that what scares her?

Is that what made her put distance between you?

I'm happy knowing she's there.

I'm unhappy fighting.

She's yell at you because she doesn't know what else to do.

You'll try to fight off her way of thinking hoping you'll say the right thing.

But can you truly say the right things to her?

Cause she just got farther and farther away.

She'll get jelous once in awhile and so will you.

She'll slowly lean in for a kiss from you, hoping you'll forgive her for the fault of not telling you.

You're gut tells you..."Back away and fast" but your heart says," You jerk you know you love her"

Slowly but surely she'll find a way to make you put that emptyness back into your heart that you've felt since she left you standing alone once again.

You may fear her leaving.

She may fear you leaving.

Together you begin to realize....you'll love her anyways.

She'll slowly stop yelling.

You'll slowly hear her voice go soft and you hear the tears she's shedding.

She's still the woman you love.

It doesn't matter anymore why she yelled.

It doesn't matter anymore you got jelous.

And it doesn't matter anymore that your heart still hurts.

It's for the times she'll allow you to hear the tears you can only hear over the phone.

Moment by moment you'll realize your happy knowing you have happy memories in her.

Second by second you'll realize she's still standing there.

Minute by minute you'll realize she may walk away in the end....but you'll love anyone like you've loved her all these years.

Happy....

Hope....

and love is found in a fight.

You'll yell again.

And you both know it.

You'll be angry with the other.

And you both know it.

But for now....your both happy knowing....you still have her.

It didn't take a minute to realize you didn't want to lose her.

It didn't take an hour to realize all you wanted was to cry.

And it didn't take someone else to tell you, you loved her.

A second went by and all you wanted was her.

A minute went by and all you wanted was to make up.

So yell all you want.

Scream the words you feel.

And cry when the only thing you have left is i'm sorry.

You realize....her tears you hear or only a way of telling you she's sorry.

Even if it came to we need a break.

You see it as the end.

She sees it as....i need time.

You see it as i wasted my time again.

She sees it as....wait i still love you.

Together......her tears say it all.

And you'll yell cause all you have is to hide the tears between the yelling.

All you have is the scream of wait.....i still love you.

You won't hear the voice cry.

But you'll know by the last words....she still loves me.

Happy moments....found in her voice.

Happy moments....found in her tears you hear over the phone.

Happy moments....found by the yells and angry voice.

Happy moments...found when all you have to say is....wait i still love you!


Tuesday, April 24, 2007

So we had our play which went well. Sad but i'll kinda miss it. My life is like a roller coaster some days i feel happy...than i see her. Her in which who broke my heart and still today i don't think even cares. I have my moments where i still want to hit her. Like today she was talking to MY friend and than walked away when i came over to say hi to MY friend. On a better note i got to say goodbye to all my friends. Which was hard but it works. Life goes on. I'm glad life is getting better. I have a great girl and a better life that i think that will go further. I'm not going to prom which is fine by me. No date no fun. Well i'm off! I'll miss you all in Tech i mean that! You guys rockish! And i love you Kati!


Thursday, March 22, 2007

Faith with regret

What i want to say is i hate you.

What i wanted to do was hit you.

What i want to do is making it so before i ever loved you i'd take it all back, save myself this hurt.

If i had a choose i'd go back.

I see you hug him.

He takes you into his arms and i fall apart.

Apart of me wants to punch him apart of wants me to hit you.

How could i have been a fool to believe we'd last.

We'd make it if i just made up my mind.

But you see love was good enough for me.

I was wrong.

Really wrong!

I miss you!

Despite my hate for you now.

Despite i've moved on.

But i see you with him and i fall apart.

You hurt me more than i think anyone i ever loved has.

I want to hate you!

I want to be over you!

What i want is have faith in the fact i can get over you!

I regret letting u go.

I regret loving you.

In the all the facts i once knew there stands the non fiction written story.

The story that ended only in the middle.

The story un finished.

The glass is half empy you tell yourself.

Get over her.

You tell yourself.

You have a great girl.

A great life!

Why does seeing her kill the inside of u?

Cause deep down you know you had her and she let you go.

For all the right reasons.

For all the wrong reasons.

Your left....wishing she would burn.

You wish....you could burn.

You wish.....you loved never loved her at all.

But all along your the person to blame for the past.

Only the present you know you did not fail.

Did not fail the 3rd time.

There she walked though.

Walked straight out of your life.

But those footprints left......are still deep in your mind.

You tell yourself....if i never loved her would i wish i had.

You want to hate her.....but you can't.

In the end.....your heart will mend.....over time.

What i want to do is forget it and get over it.

All i want is the girl i've wanted all along.

What i want is for life to actually stay okay for awhile.

Without confusing and telling the truth.

Telling the truth is the right thing to do but gets you into trouble.

Faith....faith in the fact you can't change what has come into play.

Regret....regret putting the knife through your heart and get over her.

Love....was there but needs to die.

Lust......is only left of the shattered story.

The end...... not speaking at all.

The beginning.........amazing.

The middle........ cause you loved me i can get over you.

What i want to do is win back my love!

 

 

 

 



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